HELLO APHRODITE we meet again and I find it unnerving...

that I swear to god every single one of my friends that are girls have said to me lately, "I wish I were more like you. I wish I had less feelings and didn't give a fuck." That shits just wild to me. Especially when someone says stuff like "I've always acted like a guy, but you've inspired me."

since when was being a jaded ass biaaa who runs away from about 95% of good potential relationships like the new trend? I'm living in the era of unemotional attachment is whats happening. Its crazy how the ability to become emotionally vulnerable enough to actually fall in love is now a sign of weakness and I've somehow wound up to be the fucking poster child. Lol. Ill be honest I used to be semi proud of it like I wore it like some kind of badge of honor but for some reason it's just not what it is all cracked up to be. Not that im saying i want to wind up in some co-dependent weird ass relationship any time soon. I just want to be less jaded: a balance between being a completely infatuated nut job and a rationally sane person.

anyways the fact is that I've been running my game like a guy for the past 23 years of my life and although it was ridiculously fun and all Im ready for a change. So when the right guy comes along ill try not to be that much of dumb ass. I can't promise you anything dear little blog site,but I can say I will try at least to start things out with the best intentions.

i feel like i need a fucking 12 step program to de-guyatize my whole mentality about relationships. for reals. over and out. peace.