FUCKKKKKKKK ME.

no seriously

okay okay OKAY okay OKAY

half-joking

I'm trying to figure out if its just because my brain has been used to operating on stress that I constantly find myself procrastinating like a crazy bia. I mean even if I have like basically a 3 day weekend I will go as far as to stare at my bedroom walls for a good 5 hours to avoid doing anything productive. OH MY GOD. Am I personality type B? you know what I mean? or have I destroyed too many bloody brain cells to remember exactly what the definition of personality type B is.

I know for sure that personality type As are the anal-retentive-high-strung-bitch-you-need-to-CALM-THE-FUCK-DOWN-BEFORE-I-PUNCH-YOU-IN-YOUR-THROAT -control-freak-stop TIME-MANAGING-MY-SHIZZZ, which means that personality type B must be the mellow mofos who the As get mad at...unless there is a C and D and I'm just making shit up which may very well be the case.

fuck.

fuck

fuck

Anyways onto another train of thought. I need to do something crazy, random, and extremely weird like PRONTO. I'm bored with life. I also need to find a group of people willing to do awkward things in extremely awkward situations. The problem with moving around all the fucking time and being stuck in school is that I never get a moment to really explore and establish well like a group of friends outside of the program. Its weird cuz everyone here seems to originally be from Portland so they already have amigos they kick it with on the daily. It'd be strange to go up to someone and be like "HI I'm new in town. be my friend. better yet introduce me to all your other friends so we can all kick it and I can be your token asian yadda yadda yadda." Though now that I think about doesnt completely sound like that bad of an idea...maybe a bit borderline desperate, but not bad.

im not really sure where I'm going with this post cuz I'm being weird as fuck, but memo-to-self: make friends out side of school. Did i really just make a memo to stop being anti-social? fuck me. like seriously. the fuck?!?