Okay so I got myself into a sticky situation that I honestly never should of been in in the first place, but alas I have shitty impulse issues up the freakin ying-yang and well....shit happened.
It's not that I regretted it cuz I mean it was good for what it was, but if the situation played out like it did for the last 5 months it would of never have ended cuz well lets see my last situation lasted for 4 years and the little ones in between that one went on for 1 to 2 years. Lets just say that I am that good at keeping people's interest level at an all time high.
But honestly shit had to end cuz im getting way to grown to be running my same game...So what do you do? Do I A) keep approaching it the same way hoping that it would fizzle naturally by its self?!? (sike...it never did even when both people agreed to it) or B) Do I on purpose act like a Crazy ass emotional bitch so the fool would stop talking to me?!!? yuppppp....who here thinks I went with option B? cuz well I did. I made an executive decision to act like i had a vagina. The insane thing is I knew how to do it to because I've had years of experience observing other girls being crazy. I was unnerved at the fact that I was pretty damn good at 1) bitching someone out and 2) acting like a needy ass biaaa.
I am, however, none of those things..thank you very much. Let's face it. I'm jaded as a muther fuckkka and I ownnn it. It works for me.
My reasoning for pulling this move is because honestly if i was a guy the only thing that would deter me from wanting something would be the combination of 1 and 2. No matter how attracted I am to a person if I knew that fool was crazy I'd be calling out NExxxxT faster than twista rapping about hoes and money.
The weird thing is...I never really felt bad or regretted self-sabotaging myself on purpose. Like do I apologize? or say something like Hey I acted like a nut job so that you'd stop talking to me and I was hoping that we'd just be friends eventually after you got over thinking I was a crazy when really I'm a pretty dope ass person. yeahh i dont think one can really bounce back from that one. haha. ohhshizzleeeeee. I mean i guess you do what you gotta do. It's probably for the best.
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